Subside Not

♫ when i break up with my boyfriend
what i need is my best friends

when i break up with my boyfriend
what i need is my best friends

girls and guys / exes and fly / babes of the future / celebrated witches / queer/androgynous no /
frontiers / love is / in / between

when i break up with my bf
and i’m driving thru the desert alone

when i break up with my bf
and it’s 113 in the shade
i call my / best friend on the phone ♪

& then i called my best friend in PDX & she didn’t answer & her voicemail box was full
i wanted to evade ownership & then i started paying rent. and then. and then.
and then i would like to quit. i wanted to quit it all, i wanted – to leave me, leave me, i want to be left
– out of this mess – you selfish bastard – who has a home phone anymore. who keeps a landline
i’m washing a trash can in the sink so i feel dirty              call my landlord, tell him, tell him,
i wanted to evade ownership & then i started paying      we could be friends i won’t sign anything
rent
i wanted to feel you wanting me and i couldn’t
feel this so i quit it i quit it i am a slaughterhouse and i’m dead now and this is what heaven
smells like i’ve been planing fortunes i’ve been making musts, i’ve been tertiary primogeniture, i don’t care what yr mom says, yr not from the rockies

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Maya Weeks is a poet and artist from California.